Learnings...

Hmm..a friend asked what are my learnings from the past 2 months. Lets see,

1. Stop deriving my sense of well being from others.
2. Stop being overly society driven. Stop the approval seeking tendency.
3. Stop putting people on a pedestal without getting to know them well enough.
4. Stop basing my life around people and forgetting myself in the process.
5. Smell the cheese often. ;-)
6. Keep a tab on the level of expectations i have from people.
7. Start living from myself.
8. Dont hesitate in telling people when i think something is wrong.
9. Be good to everyone except the ones who are bad to me. No point to keep loving people even when they throw shit at me.
10. Learn to draw a line.

...this, and probably much more. :-)

Bystander

Its amazing how the world works. How people think, act and behave. Sometimes i just feel like stepping aside and watching the show as a bystander. Without participating, without forming any opinions and without being judgemental. Just a silent observer.

Just a random thought... :-)

Zindagi Kis Taalaash Mein Hai...

Kuch saye, kuch parchhaiyaan, kuch chahat ke sajde,
Kuch behte badlo pe rakhi ummeedey, barasti rahi, tarasti rahi,
Chaand asmaan pe jade suraakh ki tarah jhaakta raha,
Aur raat kisi andhe kuen ki tarah muh khole haafti rahi;
Raaste paon tale se nikalte rahe, na ruke, na thamey,
Na roka, na poocha, zindagi kis taalaash mein hai.

Zindagi thakne lagi hai,
aur ye, zindagi ka judwa,
uski unglee pakde, shahar ki nangi sadko par
abhi tak kuch been raha hai, kuch dhoond raha hai.

- Gulzar

On Second Thoughts...

Now that read my last post, it seems too idealistic.

It might be possible to forgive, but some things can never be forgotten. However sorry the concerned person might be, sometimes that one wrong can be at such fundamental level that it is simply not possible to forget and get things back to complete normalcy.

Trust once broken does not come back easily. If someone betrays you at the very basic level and then feels bad and says sorry, its pretty much like putting dettol after killing someone.

Forgive...maybe but some bitterness would remain in heart. Not as a feeling of anger or drive to get even with the person, but just a plain simple hurt that you'd carry for a long long time. :-

But what is important is to learn from the episode and keep that smile intact. To keep trusting people and not to loose hope. To keep making friends...

Forgive & Forget...

It feels nice to be able to get things back to normal. To be able to forgive someone when it is not easy to. To see the brighter side of life.

People make mistakes. If i really care about someone i should be able to forgive their mistake. Once i am sure that they have realised their folly and learnt something from the whole episode, i should forgive and move on.

Carrying grudges, keeping hard feelings, acting egoistic and vindictive...this is not my way of life. It doesn't lead to anything but mutual hurt. If someone has to take the harder decision, it should be me. That makes me feel good about myself.

I must remember that every person is good deep inside. Its upto me to go to that depth and make a true friend out of him. To break the barriers that person has made for various reasons and see his true self. :-)

---->>P.O.W.E.R. <<----

I can't understand some people's obsession with power. The constant desire to be the center of all activities. It is ugly to see people play politics in an educational institute. I know the scenario is going to be much worse in the workplace but atleast there it is open power play. You know what to expect from people.

The years spent at a residential insititue are supposed to be the years of fun. Of forming friendships that will last a lifetime. Learning new things from so many talented people around.

When i see people trying to act godfatherly, "networking" for future, doing constant impression management, competing to be the power center; it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. And sadly, most people accept such behavior in name of "practicality".

I know, "Welcome to the real world"!!!

Morning Walks!

Morning walks...reminds me of good old delhi days...back in early nineties when i used to go along with my colonymates as the kid of the gang. Some 10-12 of us, ranging from 6 years to 20 years...running around in the Lodhi Gardens, inside the tombs, playing frisbee and badminton. So much of free time, complete freedom, no worries... I think i should try to get back to the same mould...take things as they come and enjoy every bit of my existence. :)

Swinging moods, drifting life.

Its amazing to observe the pace at which our moods change.

Just yesterday night i was telling my friend about how every person is nice deep inside and it is just a matter of how deep we dig without loosing patience.

And today i feel isn't it futile to respect that good part of every person. If a person is not good to you then do we really need to wait for that good part of him to surface?

Opposite thoughts, within a stretch of 24 hours...unable to decide which one comes from the real me!